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67 Days

Today is Tuesday, May 19, 2020.
Tuesdays are the day I post new meditations. Yet, today there is no new practice. I am sorry that I don’t have another meditation for you all today. I do not share too much personal information here, but I would like to share with you today in a hope to be real and perhaps some of you can relate.
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Let me start by saying, I am tremendously grateful for this community. I am filled with true joy when I read the outpouring of positive comments posted every day. I am fortunate to have the opportunity to serve you all in the form of meditation practices. So, thank you for showing up, thank you for practicing with me!
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Today is the 67th day of “lock down” or quarantine for us in Maryland, similar to so many other areas. We have all shifted the way we live, the way we shop for groceries, the way we cook and eat meals, the way our children are experiencing school, the way we work, the way we celebrate birthdays and graduations, the way we see doctors, friends, and out of town family members. And the list could go on.
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My business, a local Pilates and Yoga studio has been closed for 67 days as well. In 67 days, we have created a new business model to continue to employ our staff and serve our clients. We have launched a second YouTube channel to serve more people worldwide.
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For me, today, I have realized, I have not changed the way I take care of myself to reflect all the other changes going on in my life. I have not taken the time to experience the grief for the loss of the life as I knew it before now. This life from our past will never be the same. We have collectively experienced a trauma, a significant loss.
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Yesterday as I was preparing for the first of many appointments I had scheduled on my calendar, as I was going over my never-ending to-do list, it hit me hard. I felt like I was hit in the face with something I should have seen coming. I was overcome with overwhelm. I couldn’t go on like this any longer. It felt like I was breaking at the seams, like I was falling apart.
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Fortunately, Les was there to catch me as he has in the past. He was there to comfort me, wipe away my tears, and guide me to see what I needed to see. I was not taking care of myself. I was not looking inward to see what I needed at this time. I was not listening to what was truly important to me. I was not connecting with my own heart and my own values.
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I teach movement and meditation for everyone around me, yet somehow, those basic components of my life had been neglected. A teacher of mine always said, when you think you don’t have an hour for meditation, that is when you need two hours. How could I let this happen? How could I neglect myself to a point of falling apart?
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Well, I see now what happened. I didn’t give myself the time to adjust to the changes. I didn’t give myself the silence and stillness to experience what I was actually feeling. I worked myself constantly as a distraction, a way to cover the fear of the unknown. Working from home, there were no boundaries.
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This long message is all to say to you and as a commitment to myself, I am taking what I need for myself. And I hope you will all take the time to do the same. I am going back to the basics of self-care. For me, that is nourishing movement and meditation. I am slowing down and practicing what I teach. My hope is that by sharing the real me, it can provide value for each of you in some way. Here are the movement and meditation practices that I found helpful for me currently. But don’t worry, another meditation will be coming next week!

About the author, Sara

Sara is the founder of The Mindful Movement and the owner of Coreworks Fitness, a Pilates and Yoga studio in MD. Sara is also a Pilates and CoreAligh Master instructor with Balanced Body.

Sara is passionate about helping others grow and live mindful, fulfilled lives. She helps others move better, feel better, live with a deep awareness, gratitude and their whole heart. She strives to inspire others to live authentically and passionately in love and abundance.

9 Comments

  1. Pattie Lujetic on 05/20/2020 at 12:39 AM

    So I am not the only one who feels like that?! That took courage and also kindness to share that with us. Thank you so much. My husband has MS and dementia, and is very loving, but doesn’t understand the never ending list of duties I have to perform for us.

  2. MaryBeth on 05/20/2020 at 1:53 AM

    Good for you! Honest and real. Wishing you the best. And, thank you for your wonderful work. I access the meditations quite frequently.

  3. Catherine Olden on 05/20/2020 at 6:38 AM

    Just wanted to say I find your meditation practices fantastic, by far the best I have tried. I’m aiming to start every morning with one or two. This morning I started with positive energy and affirmations.

    Keep up the fantastic work and please take care of yourself first and foremost. You can’t pour from an empty cup!! 🤨

    Take care.

    Many thanks
    Regards
    Catherine

  4. Gabriela Fernández Gutiérrez on 05/20/2020 at 6:56 AM

    I have been practicing your meditations for a few months now Sara. They are useful for my busy and rushed life. This is the first time I read an article. Searching on Instagram for a positive message before I went to bed I read your post. It is amazing how the universe works “for us” and God always knows how to show us the way.
    Thank you very much for sharing your insight, it mirrored me and It is an invitation to stop, allow myself to grieve and get back to the basics to go on.
    Abrazos virtuales from Puebla, México 😊🙏🏼

  5. Beatriz Llano on 05/20/2020 at 2:28 PM

    I read this article with great interest. I follow you and have the privilege of enjoying your meditations and podcasts. Yes, please show us the way! I hear you and I see many of us experiencing what you just described!!
    with love and gratitude!

  6. Elizabeth on 05/29/2020 at 10:00 AM

    This hit me rigor in my soul ( I live in panama city so I am a latín american perdón so excuse my english🤭)I always practica with you, your Voice sooths me( and belif me I ha d a lot of teachers) and now your experience validates my feelings 😘👏👏you are a beautiful and thruthful soul🤗🌹🙏

  7. Adina Georgescu on 06/03/2020 at 10:44 PM

    Hi Sarah, you are an amazing lady, i love your meditations, latley I am falling asleep with them in my headphones.
    Lots of what i hear in your meditation ive been told by my coach.
    Hopefully in time ill manage to get back in conection with myself and heal myself.
    Since lock down camed I and up with anxiety… Never thought I will ever experience something like this and now I’m learning that are alot of people like me…
    Thank you Sarah for everything you post, I’m sure lots of people like me finds this very helpful.

  8. Annabel on 06/06/2020 at 4:15 PM

    Dear Sarah

    You have helped me so much through a really challenge time. Thank you for that and I really hope that you are able to feel calmer and more in control having spent some time for you. You deserve it. What you give with your meditations is so powerful. You have such a gift. Such a way with words and a lovely calming manner. Thank you from me in the UK! ❤️ xxx

  9. Andrew on 06/09/2020 at 11:13 AM

    Sara, thank you for your calming voice, for your meditations. They helped me start the day before the pandemic started, and then I kind of let it slide. I’m having a bit of a wobbly time at the moment with it all, and have just revisited your YouTube channel after too long not taking care of me. You have once again brought peace to my mind, thank you
    I’m so sorry to read that you’re having a wobble too and I hope that it will pass for you, as indeed I hope that these times will also pass for all of us. Sending best wishes x

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